6/29/2006 03:00:00 PM   [ link ]

things to know:

Life has been crazy. I'm wrapping up the last few days of my graduate student life, trying to get things finished before I leave. I'm still mulling over job possibilities, but I don't really want to write about that stuff here until I've made a decision. I'm pretty close to a decision.

Job hunting has pulled me way out of my comfort zone when it comes to making phone calls and leaving messages and stuff. I'm currently taking deep breaths and trying to figure out the most diplomatic possible way to tell one person "I definitely don't want to work for you." I should take care of that phonecall today, but I'm dragging my feet.

I've more or less sworn off of IM. I now try to use it only when it's an odd hour and I need evidence to support that a person is awake before I call them.

I REALLY wish right now that there was an Ott's in St. Louis. It was this teeny little building in Springfield, no bigger than a shack, and for a couple bucks they'd make you a take out dinner of bread sticks, tasty salad, and one of several pasta selections. Mmmmmmmmmmm.

I'm probably going to make a sparkler bomb for the 4th, as usual. If anyone wants to watch me set it off, just let me know. They're pretty sweet.

That's all for now!

6/21/2006 08:02:00 PM   [ link ]

I just ate the worst food I have ever made for myself. It was just a spinach salad! With black olives and tomatoes and red onion! And to make it more like a dinner, I was going to put some hard-boiled eggs on it. But I didn't cook the eggs long enough, so they were soft-boiled eggs. They probably would have been edible, but NOO, I had to go and put them in the microwave to "fix" them and then they EXPLODED and turned disgustingly RUBBERY. Grossest.

I am once again floundering and feeling completely incapable of rational decision-making processes. Lists of pros and cons of various jobs are not helping yet. Attempting to choose based on which pathway, when visualized in great detail, makes me feel the least sick to my stomach and terrified: inconclusive. All possibilities lead to feeling like I just ate rubbery eggs.

6/20/2006 07:00:00 AM   [ link ]

today is better because:

I didn't wake up a million times in the night.
I didn't wake up crying.
I haven't cried, yet. (Although it's only 7am.)
Brooke makes me smile.
The thought of breakfast still makes me ill, but today I'm gonna eat it anyway.

Yeah that's all I got for now. Maybe I'm reaching. But hey, it's only 7am.

6/19/2006 12:49:00 PM   [ link ]

Oh man oh man.

I am not doing so good.

Not good at all.

6/08/2006 11:27:00 PM   [ link ]

You were angry with me in my dream last night.

Also in my dream there was a guy with no legs. Everyone was sure he was going to win the race. He hauled his torso stump up onto a post sticking out of the water, and when the gun went off he wobbled himself until he fell in. Then he started swimming, and even with no legs he was still faster than everyone.

6/06/2006 10:55:00 AM   [ link ]


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