2/27/2003 10:38:00 PM   [ link ]

This time four years ago, everything was easy.

When I was in high school, I was smart. School was laughably easy. Every college wanted me. How could they not? I can honestly say that there's nothing that could possibly have made my applications any stronger. They danced around me and offered me money and I had my pick of where to go. And all of this seemed very natural. I grew up being told I could do anything, and it was always true.

I am no longer smart. My grades are all decent, but not stellar. (It isn't that I don't try.) I'm being rejected for job opportunities left and right. I got my first grad school rejection letter in the mail yesterday. (I'm sure there are two more on the way.) I feel so mediocre. I spent four years getting an education, and suddenly I don't have anything that anyone wants anymore.