4-29-02 4:06pm lightistoobright: so what are you up to? EHawk1024: doin homework lightistoobright: haha! I don't have any more lightistoobright: no more no more! Ehawk1024: kljfdsakljfdsjhkfdsadsf Ehawk1024: that was sweedish for you suck 4-27-02 4:01pm When I was a little girl, my mother would always say that if an eyelash had fallen off onto my cheek, I should put it on the back of my hand, blow it away, and make a wish. (I guess everyone grows up with silly little rules for when you get to wish for something.) I don't remember what I wished for when I was little, but it seems like for a long time lately, I've always wished for the same thing. Every time, the same wish, without even thinking about it first. Today there was an eyelash on my cheek, and I realized that my usual wish didn't seem so important anymore. I wish to never again be so smugly satisfied with my life that I make wishes without giving them any thought. I wish to always have new things to wish for. 4-26-02 9:30am After dragging myself out of bed at 7am this morning (on <2 hours of sleep, nonetheless) to take a physics exam that I was completely unprepared for, I finished before anyone else in the class. This is *definitely* not a good thing. I stayed to fill out the course evaluation, which gave the professor the chance to look over my exam. As I was leaving, he asked if I'm absolutely sure I don't want to be a physics major. (Excuse me, but I think I just failed your exam. Now you want me to be a physics major?!) It takes a very sick and twisted person to say something like that. That's right, hit me when I'm down. Another exam and a paper to turn in before I get to sleep, it's gonna be a long day. 4-26-02 2:14am So... the irony that my most recent post was posted to a *fake* weblog only just now dawned on me. (I'm so dense sometimes.) The first start in getting something real in my life will be the *real* lightistoobright. It is coming soon, I promise... 4-25-02 4:23pm Right now, I'm writing a fake letter from one fake company to another saying how much they enjoyed working on a fake project. When I am done, I will make up some fake science to fill out the rest of my paper. After that, I will study quantum physics, which is also obviously made up. I need something real in my life. 4-25-02 3:18am My mind is so jumbled up today. I could lie on my bed for ages, staring at the wall with my mouth partly open. Not sleeping, not even thinking, just letting the incoherent stream of consciousness roll by... 4-24-02 10:14pm I wish I didn't have to write this tech writing paper. Also, I wish I had a real weblog. 4-24-02 1:15am I'm a horrible person. Michael is not actually an idiot. I only said that to make him mad. So, I apologize. I apologize to michael. I apologize to anyone else who happened to read my site and mistakenly get the impression that I think michael is an idiot. In fact, I think that michael is a very nice person, and not an idiot at all. Michael, can you ever forgive me? 4-24-02 12:30am michael is an idiot.