6/02/2008 09:06:00 PM [ link ]
hehehe.
teehee.
5/29/2008 09:52:00 PM [ link ]
I have never read this book.
"I saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story. From the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked. One fig was a husband and a happy home and children, and another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor, and another fig was Ee Gee, the amazing editor, and another fig was Europe and Africa and South America, and another fig was Constantin and Socrates and Attila and a pack of other lovers with queer names and offbeat professions, and another fig was an Olympic lady crew champion, and beyond and above these figs were many more figs I couldn't quite make out. I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because I couldn't make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet."~Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar
5/26/2008 09:33:00 PM [ link ]
hello, Internet. how are you?
It is nice to meet you. I am Amy. It sure is a pleasant evening! Don't you think?When I last wrote, I was in the process of buying a house, buying a sweet grand piano, and falling in love. I said that "big things" were afoot, perhaps with an implicit promise that I would eventually disclose them. And then I promptly forgot that this website ever existed. What do I have to show for myself, from the 26th year of my existence?
I have settled into the house. I finally threw a party here (a mere three weekends ago). I started piano lessons again. I traveled to Nicaragua, Malaysia, Indonesia and Vermont. I tore up my back fence and (mostly) rebuilt it. I told ghost stories on a pile of mattresses with Muslim schoolgirls. I ate too much junk food and drank too much beer. I spent an evening stargazing in 20 degree weather. I stared down a black bear. I spent more time feeling boring than feeling interesting, and more time feeling useless than feeling useful.
Things are good and not good. The same and not the same. I feel OLD, sometimes. Like when I really *look* at how much grey hair I have, instead of just ignoring it. Or on my birthday, when my own mother called me old (Thanks, Mom!). My ten-year-old self envisioned life being a lot different at this age.
But instead, here I am. I've got this life that's different than what I thought it would be, and I have no idea what comes next.
3/20/2007 10:57:00 AM [ link ]
by the way, folks:
If you're looking for Zombies! Quarterly (the premier journal of Zombie Arts and Sciences), you should point your internet machines in this direction.Enjoy!
3/14/2007 01:33:00 PM [ link ]
big things are afoot.
Several big things. Nothing that I'm cool with talking about on here, however. Not yet, at least.
11/09/2006 12:40:00 PM [ link ]
it's all a matter of perspective, really.
Well, I spent some time last night walking around in a more literal fog (it was just sitting there in Heman Park, how could I resist?) and it was actually quite beautiful and not at all depressing to be wrapped in fog. So. There is that.
11/03/2006 07:13:00 AM [ link ]
I was having such a lovely dream...
Alarm clock, you are so fired.
11/01/2006 11:17:00 PM [ link ]
I have just spent a lovely evening doing laundry and making schemes. SCHEMES with Elaine. And it is a well known fact that all schemes devised with Elaine will by definition be Schemes of the Highest Quality.
It has been far too long without scheming for me. Hopefully this matter will be rectified in the future. Oh yes.
10/31/2006 09:46:00 PM [ link ]
Life is pretty ok these days. I still don’t get much done that I say I’d like to, but at least I’m not so much of a hermit. I’ve actually caught myself overusing the word “fabulous” lately. I cringe when I hear myself say it, because I know I will soon strip it of all its superlative enthusiasm. But, I’m glad to be overusing “fabulous” rather than, say, “miserable” or something!
10/29/2006 07:54:00 PM [ link ]
this is what I want my life to be like
This? is FANTASTIC. How can I learn to be more adept at alleviating boredom in new and unusual ways? Also, who wants to travel back in time with me? Croquet party at my place!…Anyone?