5/26/2008 09:33:00 PM [ link ]
hello, Internet. how are you?
It is nice to meet you. I am Amy. It sure is a pleasant evening! Don't you think?When I last wrote, I was in the process of buying a house, buying a sweet grand piano, and falling in love. I said that "big things" were afoot, perhaps with an implicit promise that I would eventually disclose them. And then I promptly forgot that this website ever existed. What do I have to show for myself, from the 26th year of my existence?
I have settled into the house. I finally threw a party here (a mere three weekends ago). I started piano lessons again. I traveled to Nicaragua, Malaysia, Indonesia and Vermont. I tore up my back fence and (mostly) rebuilt it. I told ghost stories on a pile of mattresses with Muslim schoolgirls. I ate too much junk food and drank too much beer. I spent an evening stargazing in 20 degree weather. I stared down a black bear. I spent more time feeling boring than feeling interesting, and more time feeling useless than feeling useful.
Things are good and not good. The same and not the same. I feel OLD, sometimes. Like when I really *look* at how much grey hair I have, instead of just ignoring it. Or on my birthday, when my own mother called me old (Thanks, Mom!). My ten-year-old self envisioned life being a lot different at this age.
But instead, here I am. I've got this life that's different than what I thought it would be, and I have no idea what comes next.
